it doesn't help that financial restrictions have forced me to re-consider the wisdom behind smoking...i haven't had a puff in 48 long, long hours, and it feels like someone's grating my skull with a cheese shredder...
I crave oh so badly the cancer-sticks that taunt me from a not so insurmountable distance...my body feels like i haven't eaten in days, no matter how much food i stuff in my face, and my nerves are balancing precariously on a knives edge...
i am extremely irritable today...totally unstable... irrational...jittery...a nervous wreck....and i blame it all on my ADDICTION to smoking...my very PHYSICAL addiction, i might add...and i stress the emphasis on the upper case words in case a certain someone happens to read this...
grrrrrr.....my blood simmers like a volcano ready to spew its deadly contents.......that certain someone really really annoyed me earlier today, btw...im totally not myself tonight...i shouldnt be this annoyed, and ordinarily I wouldnt be, but like i said, im feelin irritable...
Damn the Jonas brothers...am i the only one who thinks they look disturbingly freakish??? honestly i dont know how much more of this i can take...the world is collapsing around me, even though its not, and non-issues are bugging the shit out of me...
Somebody, please fastforward my life by two weeks so i dont have to go thru this utterly crappy process??? pleeeease...?
Fuck this whiny shit...i'm outta here...i hate all of you by the way...
This is Dreamer signing out....
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